my 21st bday...

dear diary,
i turned 21 on the 19th of august... my bday celebrations sucked... i hated my bday... i wish Pramod would listen to me and do things my way instead of forcing his idea of a good time onto me... for example, i don't exactly think inviting pple i dont really care about and having to slave over the cooking and watching others drink (considering i don't drink myself) is the epitome of a good time... i am upset... feel so down... i wanted a good party coz i've turned 21, thats like epic right... kind of a milestone... listening to the soundtrack of Twilight while i write this... helps me to stay in a good enuf mood... i'd be crying otherwise... i mean, i had a better time with my doc frenz yesterday in the rain at India Gate at 1 o' clock in the morning after my belated bday celebrations... i mean i shud have more fun celebrating the day itself wth my boyfriend instead, don't you think? but no, that wasn't to be i guess... the cake was the only thing that i wanted... black forest... yum... even my bday gifts were things that i didn't really want... Pramod gave me silver jewellery which was really sweet of him, but things that i really needed, like a good diary or a pen drive, he didn't get me! i hate it bcoz i can't even tell me all this, i don't wanna hurt him!!! and then i was sick and didn't even get to eat dinner... so basically, i didnt have a very good bday as you can make out... i got a nice purse from Hemant tho... i needed one... mama gave me a goodie bag and pa sent me money... ma's goodie bag had lots of nice things... a shirt, pair of capris, a racerback tee, two pairs of sandals, two Stephen King's... but i liked the letter she wrote to me best... i had bought myself a digital camera some time back as a bday present to myself... so i got lotsa pics... on the whole tho, i would have preferred something else... even my plans to celebrate my bday at an old age home didn't happen bcoz the lady in charge wasn't there... so nothing that i wanted happened... so much for a good time... i know i'm sounding whiney, but i so wanted to have a good time, it being my 21st bday and all... but things just sucked... sigh!!!